Sensitive freight

Sensetive freight

 

Life is just one continuous transition. There are no breaks & not one single destination. Even the ‘breaks’ are stations reorienting us from one point to the next…to the next…

 

There’s a lot of activity in the sky this week that can stir up lots of feels & frustrations. There’s also the desire to make sense of the most recent Mercury Retrograde cloud that passed through & hung heavy.

 

Being at the halfway point of this years Eclipse Seasons we have lights illuminating the road both back & forth. When / if the heavy feels land, take them as a sign post for things that are amidst transition ~ we need to create space for the new to come in by acknowledging & releasing the old. 

 

Control is an illusion that keeps us in stuck states, so denying ourselves direct contact with our vulnerabilities & sensitivity can only create frustrating road blocks. There’s no hurry & nowhere to go!

 

Neptune v’s Capitalism

Video footage by Nolan Omura

 

Resistance is futile, enjoy the ride.

 

This recent Mercury Rx cycle ended with the messenger snuggled up to mystical, nebulous Neptune. If retrograde times themselves aren’t enough to throw us off, sealing the deal with Neptune only intensified this.

 

The effects continuing this week have left many of us feeling cloudy & indecisive while lacking vitality & clear direction. Sound familiar? 🤔

 

It’s these moments, these potent astrological signatures, that are clear cosmic reminders that Capitalism is man-made & intrusive on our natural rhythms. The desire to achieve, to strive for survival is innate, but aligning our worth with ‘success’ & ‘progress’ is not. Why is it so hard to rest & DO nothing? How much did you push against this tide, only to feel more confused & dissatisfied? When we DO nothing, the only thing we can ‘do’ is just be. It’s in these precious moments that we can truly hear the messages.

 

 If we lived in a society where we were encouraged to make our life’s work something we’re good at or enjoy, the very fabric of society would be different. We would ‘work’ because we enjoy it, because it’s fulfilling, because we’re contributing. We would ‘work’ to our abilities, not a stock standard that exhausts us & pits us against each other. We wouldn’t have to stop & create time to check in, we’d be an expression of the rhythm of life itself. The indoctrination that we need to work to eat, to survive, to feel worthy are the sharp teeth of capitalism that eat away at our vitality & take us away from what we’re here to share.

 

We’re not out of this shadow phase until April 17, so these learnings are still being filtered through. With Saturn & Pluto as watchdogs over the south node traveling through Capricorn, we’re shedding more than the ideologies of capitalism. We have to address our own fears, our own beliefs & support of systems that uphold the things that inevitably hurt us.

 

Neptune allows us to view the ideal, to quest back to source. While it might not change overnight, each choice we make alters the entire vibration of the Universe. How’s THAT for personal responsibility?

 

Uranus in Taurus

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Although I haven’t watched it, the “does it spark joy?” question has filtered through. Like anyone listening to these Uranus in Taurus messages, I’m getting down, closer, to that which calls me, holds value & needs to go.

Where ever Taurus lands in your chart, you understand the desire to build roots, have comfort & long lasting material security. Uranus though, has other ideas & is forcing us to renegotiate our relationship to such things. 

Taurus wants to possess, hoard & maintain; allow slow change over a long period of time. Uranus wants to disrupt the status quo, abruptly freeing us from that which inhibits. Trying to control something so dynamic in a fixed capacity can only lead to a shuddering of secure foundations.

Being a conduit means you allow things to pass through. Like powerlines transmitting electricity, the cables & the electricity are not one and the same, nor are they’re trying to be. Taurus is the container for the energy of Uranus over the next 7 years; challenging our ideas of what ‘enough’ is, forcing us to identify that which truly brings us joy based on what we value & not relying on what worked in the past. #freshandnew

To be surrounded by less distractions, both inside & out, requires leaning in to trust in a more acute way. 

 

This trip home has walked me down so many memory lanes with friends, places, food & my eternal love: motorbikes! The fact that you physically can’t carry much stuff, that the wind washes you clean of anything stuck, that it’s you (& possibly one other) & the potential offered in an open road. Need I say more?!

This Uranus transit initiated itself last May. It’s underway, & will switch gears again on the next New Moon in Pisces. For those strongly rooted in their Taurean ways, I hope you can find your conduit shape so that you can be lead by the sparks that are illuminating your road forward. If personal earthquakes rumble & you’re aware of a need to control, right there is your diamond mine. Taurus is not interested in scratching the surface, we need to dig a lot deeper. Shedding the material has a deep emotional & spiritual component, too. Don’t deny yourself.

The road is open & all maps are out the window. Where will you go with such freedom?

Shout out to Sullo for lending me her bike & to Jessika Fancy for being numero uno co-pilot.

Survival day

 

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*Map of Aboriginal Australia can be purchased here

We’ve established that genocide is not something to be celebrated, that housing insecurity sabotages our ability to function to our fullest potential & that generational trauma is passed on irrespective of physical changes; location, $, class, privilege etc.

 
& yet we still have space in Australian society for a national holiday that upholds these basic principals, & more. We’re still governed by that same violent mentality that sought to conquer, eliminate & deny the very existence of Aboriginal people, their cultures & spirituality, that lived on & with this land for thousands of years. Thousands.

One historical difference in the colonisation of Australia & Nth America is that the specifics of conflict, dispossession & betrayal were barely recorded in visual form in Australia. Where we can find photographs & sketches of the Civil War in the US, there is hardly any visual representation of the truth in Australia, & blatant fabrication of the truth in written form. This has contributed to problematic misconceptions that a) no one was here when Captain Cook arrived b) Aboriginal people did not fight back, unlike Maori people c) the British came in peace. .

Looking at this map v’s the British division (where someone got a ruler & divided it up into what we know as Australia today), is a good reminder for us white fellas that colonisation enforces straight lines, a strict rule of thumb via assimilation, & continual erasure. Straight lines don’t occur in nature. Decolonisation requires us to think beyond the rules & mentality we’ve been indoctrinated into, to listen & soften our edges.

 
Today & everyday I stand in solidarity with the traditional custodians of this land, & continue to seek understanding of the ways in which my presence, my whiteness, my ignorance continue to reinforce this violence.

The last of the Leo – Aquarius eclipses

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Driving into the heart of this continent is nothing short of Epic. A 5 day drive that my Sagittarian feet would far prefer to walk, but are not genetically designed to do, took us from the waves lapping at the ocean shore to the fossilised rock that is the ancient sea bed. I love the desert for so many reasons; the silence, the expanse, the space, the lack of distraction that initiates an acute awareness, the lack of water simultaneously present with its tangible memory. It’s impossible to hide from yourself because you are constantly reflected everywhere.

Uluru holds great cultural & spiritual significance to the Anangu people. It extends some 6000m below ground & towers 343m above us. It’s truly immense, awe inspiring & it feels like a giant crystal pulsating magnificence. I’m so deeply grateful to be here.

We arrived at the heart of this continent on the Leo Full Moon, the sign that rules the heart, on an eclipse that acts as a bridge. The Full Moon is technically in Leo, but eclipses are defined by the Nodes of the Moon, & those Nodes are well & truly dancing along the Cancer / Capricorn axis.

This bridge is an important one. As we hurtle along into 2019, we’re building toward a critical time that will peak in 2020. The unfolding that occurs will redefine how we understand security, home, connection & the ongoing impacts of our capitalistic cis-het-patriarchal white supremist ways. This final eclipse in Leo is a reminder to sink deeper into our hearts, to not indulge the mind & fear as much as we can compassion & renegotiation.

This intensity that buiilding has me moving deeper into silence & listening. I hope for you all through this #fullmoon that you don’t deny your uniqueness, that it leads you deeper into your heart & that you carry this energy with you through the challenges that lie ahead.

 

*all images of Uluru, by Dru. January 2019

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Eclipse undertow

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The waves that are lapping at our feet right now carry the energy of the eclipse undertow. There’s a purging occurring from the inside out. There are no “little things” this week, they’re pointers to the larger issues lurking below the surface. Don’t look away, & don’t be fooled into thinking you need to control it all.

I know a lot of folks who are sick right now, or tired & depleted. Old energy is resurfacing, exposed into the conscious light of day to be purged. The eclipse this week was wedged between boss lady Saturn & break-down-to-break-through Pluto; we have to release before we can rebuild.

Take note of what you’re being drawn toward, & what you’re being challenged to leave behind – no matter how subtle. When the internet breaks & there’s no external validation…when the poles actually do shift & all you’ve got is what you’ve developed in yourself – what are THOSE things? What are you here to contribute?

We’re deepening our relationship to ourselves so that we inturn show up more authentically in the world. Project yourself forward & ask yourself what you wish you had done & see if it’s on your current to-do list. No connection or circumstance is random. Who you are & what you do now is part of an intricate web system that wants to support you; be conscious of the choices you make now because those seeds will grow.

 

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2019 Horoscopes: @them

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What a Jupiter in Sagittarius gift; having my 2019 Horoscopes reach queerdo’s far and wide! I hope they continue to guide you throughout the year and remind you to offer yourself the compassion we so readily offer others.

Thanks to @them for the opportunity, as well as to the special people in my life who support me and my work in a multitude of ways. Also, the artwork by Raisa Yavneh is amazing!

Happy New Year, everyone!

 

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Mars in Pisces; running in water

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Mars loves to run. 🏃🏼‍♂️
Pisces loves to swim. 🏊🏼‍♀️

 
When we combine these two energies, amongst the clusterfuck of everything else going on, we can feel like we’re going nowhere fast.

 
What running in water does do for us is allow mindfulness of the subtleties. It slows us down enough to hear what can be missed when blindly running toward our goals. It’s a reminder of who we take our orders from: external sources of trends, oppressive authorities or algorithms OR from our own innate knowing & wisdom.

 
If yr feeling frustrated, like yr lagging behind & cant keep up, stop trying. Find your flow & realign yourself because Mars will leap into Aries on Jan 1, & like a sling shot, we’ll be catapulted forward in the direction we’re facing.

 
What does your rhythm look like, without external influence?

Consciousness has no hierarchy

 

 

We are all these Sunflowers. We all have a physical manifestation that we move through the world with, and yet, there’s also a subtle vibration pouring from each of us at every moment. 

 

THERE IS NO LADDER OF HIERARCHY IN CONSCIOUSNESS.

 

The psychic airs are so thick and heavy right now. It can feel so hard to push through the fear and sense of impending doom, wherever in the world we are. The more I sit in this heaviness, the more I’m drawn toward understanding consciousness. Not with the mind or intellect, in being.

 

Uranus in Taurus is offering us just this. Uranus is an agitator, an awakener, forever pushing us toward freedom. In this Taurus case, we’re being given the opportunity to free ourselves from habituation, from the limitation of the body and being tied to material concerns. That doesn’t mean we check out, stop giving a shit, stop wearing clothes and give away all our money (though you can if that’s your jam.)

 

It means something different for everyone, but the vehicle that gets us there is very simple: listen to your own needs, your own inner dialogue and have boundaries that shield you from being saturated by the outside noise. Make space for your divine sound to pour forth and change this dominant, fear-based narrative. 

 

Taurus gets comfortable. It loves a groove…but grooves become ruts which become trenches that we find hard to dig ourselves out of. We’re all being uprooted. We’re all re-evaluating our worth and what we invest time, energy and money into. It doesn’t make sense that the structures that support us also undermine us. This change is destabilizing and necessary. Look to what you’re clinging to and what’s being challenged to change.

 

The noise in the world, on social media is SO. LOUD. It doesn’t matter if it’s from the left or the right, red or blue, Liberal – National – Labour – everyone’s yelling. Make space for your Sunflower sound. Plug in and let it out. 

 

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Plants talk and listen to each other

The ties that bind

We all know stories of people staying in relationships “for the children,” and we can all likely relate to having things in relationships that represent “that thing” that keeps us attached, in therapy, processing, working for and even denying what is ACTUALLY going on.

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Lightning ring by Ryan Chao

 

Venus is now in the fierce, rising phase of her cycle and there’s a jittery, disruptive energy in the air as the veil thins.

 

Uranus is stirring up the sediment down below that one offered us security and safe footing. Maybe you thought you’d made it though Venus’s journey unscathed!? What we’ve let settle and what we’ve settled for is now being weighed on the irritation scale.

 

We have a choice this week about what we go forward with and what we acknowledge and let go of. What are the ties that bind you? Financial contracts, relationship agreements where we spend our money and time all reflect our values. As you’ve changed since then, how have these agreements shifted also?

 

If you’re thinking that someone will change if only they’d go to therapy, or understand this one concept, or change this certain behaviour, you’re likely flogging a dead horse and this irritation and uncertainty is highlighting the deception.

 

What has died needs to be re-named, re-defined and re-leased.

 

Endings come in many and varied packages and they all lead to the same outcome: new beginnings.
Rise and shine!